Don't Want to Lose the Only Man I Ever Loved Twice

Dr. Love,

I was with this man for a year and a half. We were happy and everything was great except for the fact that I have fibromyalgia and I'm a lupus carrier.

Well at the time of our relationship I was in and out of the hospital alot and he couldn't handle it. At the time he was 19 and I was 17 now almost 2 and a half years later we are starting to talk again. I have thought about him the whole time we have been apart and I have thought about him almost everyday. So this past couple of weeks we have been hanging out and having fun again. I think that we have both grown up alot and are now getting to know each other for who we have become. I just need some help on whether or not I should go for it again?

I want to just see where this could go because he is the only person that I have ever loved and I miss him so much. I have been with people since him and dated and what not but I always compare everyone to him and I can't help myself I know that is a bad thing to do. I just haven't meet anyone who is like him before. He was the greatest, the sweetest most caring person in the world and I was never mad at him for leaving I understood that he was young and needed to have fun with his friends and be a teenager instead of worrying about his sick girlfriend.

Now we have been talking again and I know that he has missed me too. So do you think that I should give him a second chance and see where things could go or should I just stop it know? I need your help doctor love, I don't know what to do. I know what I want to do, I want him back. I just don't know if that would be the best idea, only because I don't want to lose the only man I have ever loved twice.

But they say it is better to have loved than not to have loved at all. What should I do I am so confused????????