Man Who is in Love With His Subordinate

These are perilous times for my heart. I'm not sure how I got myself into this situation, but the problem now is: how do I get out?

I have been married for over six years, my marriage hasn't been the best, but it's been better than many I've seen. No children, though we both want them someday, though at times I wonder if I want them with her. Sex life kinda slow, but she's a good woman. I do love my wife.

Just over six months ago, I got promoted at work, and was responsible for training my replacement. Enter: the other woman. I fell in love with her almost immediately, and honestly haven't been able to stop thinking about her ever since. The other woman is also married; in fact when we met, she had only been married for a month. She's a little younger than I am 29 to 21.

At first, I thought maybe I was infatuated with her youth, and the way she looks up to me as a mentor But our friendship has grown, and we share many common interests. The more I get to know her, the more I want to know her more. She attracts me on so many levels-physically, emotionally, intellectually-unlike anyone I have ever met. My life has changed so dramatically (for the good in most areas) because of this woman. She has given me the strength to get through some really difficult times and to make positive changes in myself It even seems like my marriage is better now too, but that 's kind of weird I want to tell her the difference she has made in my life.

I want so bad to tell her that I love her and that I'm in love with her. Every time we say goodbye at work, or talk on the phone I feel the words come up in my throat.

But I don't know if it would be right to tell her. I don't want to complicate her life, or risk circumstances that would make he unhappy in the long run. But it's killing me inside, every time I don't tell her. And besides I don't really think she feels the same anyway. So maybe it's best left unsaid. . . .

My wife does not deserve this kind of treatment. Neither does the other woman. They both probably deserve someone better than me. I love my wife, but I love and I am in love with the other woman. I'm not sure if I have ever been in love with my wife, certainly not like I am with the other woman. I've never been in love with anyone like this; I didn't think it was possible.

So the question is: how do I fall out of love with the other woman? How do I get over her and get on with my life? Is it ok just to let this go, it just seems so real? I'm not sure that 's what I want, but that 's what needs to be done. She seems like such a part of me, almost like we are one. We've never had any kind of physical relationship, except maybe ones that I imagined. I've been trying so hard to let go, but she doesn't go away, she's always there. When I close my eyes, when I open them, when I'm awake, when I'm asleep.

Of course, I guess it's pretty much just me in here, in love I mean. . . . Thanks